Good Bye to This House!

I finished dinner and showered, already went for my last walk so I can get enough rest before the big move! A memory of the past, something that made a spark in time. Time to turn the next page in history.

A Crippled and Endangered World

Why are people trying to destroy the world?

They think, "Hey, I can break into this and say it's not good enough and go wild and scream and destroy the world!"  I mean, they're not helping and think "a work in progress" is trash.

We don't seem to have as much time left on this earth.  Generation X is being mistreated and misjudged.  Someday, their parental generations will be dead.  We can't even enjoy today, like there's no time and as though some people's lives weren't meant to be free and happy.  What about today?  Are people busy sending secret messages and bothering people so they can't wind down because they got higher paying jobs?  This wasn't supposed to be a problem.

I'm miserable all the time, almost, it seems now.  It's like I have nothing to look forward to if I don't reach some goals I'm spending time feeling discouraged about.  Things are getting worse, not better, and threatened not to, even if I leave East Cleveland or move to Germany.

It's like anything that could make me happy from where I am has been prevented.  People want to identify me out and be like it's too bad for me or "flip me off."

People feel scared to respect Ellen DeGeneres, for example, but they just make up things about me and trash my life.  It's hurt my ability to play violin, too, and I get made fun of for starting since Tim Burton became more famous.

Discipline and Happiness

Was there something in store?

Getting Old and Stressed

I may be ruined on the violin and feel hopeless.

Hurting

As things get more sensitive, I feel more affected yet ambushed.  Trying to take life seriously.

Sad

I could have practiced violin more, but I'm getting depressed and feeling lonely.  Think of all that was set up, and I didn't make it.  I wish the experience were better, things were missing yet happy to be out of Orlando.

Moving Tomorrow!

I'm feeling especially bad on this last day here, but if I go for a walk this evening will probably feel happy again ... until something happens.

Depressing

Before, there was a sensitive issue being worked on, and now it's like I died, can't come back.

Ruined

Things were so happy just last year.  It's like tomorrow still existed.