Why do Europeans act like I did something bad because I'm 1/2 Asian?
People don't connect with me as much as they could, but they do with others.
I don't know what people will do being mean to me because I look White but am 1/2 Asian.
Monday, May 31, 2021
Seeing the Future
I feel like people are predicting me to do something that offends them, like have a passing thought in private, and are ready to bar me out like I'm coming.
The Relationship Between Classical and Pop Music
Classical music can be seen as an attractive form of pop music.
"Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" (2005)
Is Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) about realizing stupid things and realize you're not Charlie Bucket?
Viola?
I was hung up on if I should learn viola and never started violin yet.
Everyone plays multiple string instruments. I didn't know. Same thing in band.
Pathetic
Is French New Orleans the historical penal colony of France the only near hope for transitioning into being European?
Something Fishy
People go great lengths to do things for me, but mean people keep popping up. Something fishy.
German Classical Music
Germany admits they don't work as hard in music but play the most exciting and get all the love.
Remember me?
Everyone's different, and time's up!
Sunday, May 30, 2021
People From the US etc.
I know my music teachers were part French, sisters. Celine Dion reminds me of them, French Canadian. They seem so venerable of US culture. Both moved to Florida, where I lived. I found my music teachers's last names were Swedish.
Community College - Sports
I may be able to do volleyball and basketball.
I hope to major in violin there.
They also have an indoor pool! I've been keen on that. I'm taking swimming lessons in mid July. I was gonna go to a gym, too, and do boot camp and power circuit classes, where they also have an indoor pool.
Time to Be Racist?
People think they will still be okay in my book, later on, if they slip hints of racism, like deliberately alluding to me when they mention non-White races, and I'm 1/2 White and look/ed White.
Ethnicism
People like to mess with people who are part German, like saying all these other countries are better than you.
Decisions, Decisions
Chosing to live in Fort Lauderdale or Up North is like chosing to do something like ballet as a child or not.
Is Southeastern Florida really that "modern?"
Supposedly the most modern place in the world? Maybe, it's a step ahead of what's Up North, only fancier than New Orleans in some ways.
Getting Ready for Lift Off
I'm trying to focus on just packing to leave and move Up North to a group home. I'm a bit anxious, not been trying to practice violin because of the seriousness of it. I also need to exercise more.
I have to walk an hour to CVS to finish a medical test for the group home this morning, too, so I'm focusing on getting enough sleep.
I've already started packing most of what I need.
My younger brother and I are going to the science museum to celebrate our departure. I leave around the beginning of June, and my brother has to sell the house. I'm also looking forward to the little cafe and gift shop at the science museum. I will probably take pictures of the visit and turn it into a Wix website. I remember going there about 10 years ago, my whole family, and it was pretty cool. I took some videos of the experience but took them down, I think, on an old account. Anyway, my parents died from sickness here in Orlando, Florida. I wish things could have turned out differently, for the better. I felt we weren't very close, didn't have much fun. Now that they died, I keep imagining the feeling we're together actually having a good time. My mom was only 59, and my dad was 70. I'm 35, and my younger brother is 30.
A Mystery
I realize Miami and Fort Lauderdale (just above Miami) are the modern places of the world. They are in Southeastern Florida
I also lived in Jacksonville and Orlando. Jacksonville is in Northeastern Florida, and Orlando is in a bit North of and called Central Florida.
So, which is more modern, East Coast Florida like the Northeast too ... or Florida not on the beach though it's further South in Florida like Miami?
Also, East Coast Florida in the middle area seems to be considered different from Northeastern and Southeastern Florida because people who live in Central Florida go there for the beach, so people like me who live maybe less than an hour from Disney World? Like me, their family is not from Florida, many of them.
To put it plainly... Which is more modern: Northeastern Florida or Orlando, Florida?
Orlando, Florida does not really feel like Disney World to me. I was unable to go often because of money or being tired on pills.
Saturday, May 29, 2021
Smoothies vs. Juice vs. Iced Tea vs. Coffee
Which is healthier? Did you ever see those places that sell fresh fruit products like their own fresh squeezed juices? I also realize some smoothie places are more natural than others, but some aren't as flavor-filled much at all and sometimes there seem to be other reasons, maybe choices and type of sweetener. Each smoothie place carries with it its own environment.
Thai tea
Friday, May 14, 2021
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